Posted by pingles on November 1, 2009, at 8:10:42
Hi,
I'm a female in the mid twenties. I have become more and more asocial and don't enjoy things as I used to do. I think a lot has to do with my work, which I really hate. I work as a practical nurse and I take care of elderly at night, very hard work when I`m alone with 20 patients for about 12 hours a night. The problem is that I don't have enough energy to take care of myself now.
There are two factors which affect my mood. For about 3 years ago, my biological father, (who has got some type of manic depression), lost his mind and harmed me by throwing me into the wall and then downstairs a concrete stair after beeing invited to my partners 30th birthday party (he got too much to drink). I got a bad knee after that. Have done several surgeries and now I have to take painkillers every day to ease the pain. I will meet him in the court for the 2nd time, and I hope this nightmare will be over, soon, but Im scared for life. Have suffered both psychologically and physically.The other factor, is my work. I really feel inside myself now, when I'm not doing well at all, and have no energy to give to others, how am I gonna keep doing that? I think i really need some kind of medication, but have never taken anything before.
I have been talking to therapists in the past, after what my dad did to me. I dont call him , my dad, anymore. No contact between us, thank god.
The best part of my life is that I got a wonderful partner in any way. We have enjoyed life from the first day we became a couple and he is by my side even though he has got his own medication for many years for depression.
So i feel safe and loved. I just want to find the one I used to be. Happy and social etc..Any ideas and suggestions appreciated.
English is not my mother tongue, so I hope I can make myself understood.
Best wishes,
Pingles
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