Posted by elizabeth31 on October 17, 2009, at 14:38:54
Oh no, I think my therapist is mad at me. :( I haven't seen him in awhile and went to my first session back with him and it was horrible. Describing it as awkward at best with uncomfortable silences and it felt more like forced chit chat you would have with someone on a blind date. He was asking me questions that made me feel like he never met me before (what hobbies are you interested in? what do you do in your free time? Have you met any men you're interested in? etc...) These questions only made me feel worse about myself as I am focusing solely on my career and don't have any time or money for fun things now in my life. The more questions he was asking, the worse the tone of the session got as it made me feel worse about myself having my therapist point out how boring my life is and what a dull person I am. I guess I wasn't as chatty as I normally was and I have issues with trust and even told him it felt hard for me to open up with him because he hasn't been apart of my life in past few weeks. He was pretty defensive though and asked me if I really wanted to quit therapy completely with him....that made me feel horrible, because that wasn't my intention at all. I emailed him a few days ago and kinda apologized if I had been rude or hurt his feelings in any way....but I haven't heard back from him (which is inconsistent with his normal responses) Great, how many people can be so rude and horrible to deal with that their therapist doesn't even want to deal with me now? I feel horrible about myself :(
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