Posted by Kath on September 29, 2009, at 20:28:21
In reply to Phobic of depression, posted by pedr on September 23, 2009, at 19:42:53
> I fear that every time I think a negative/irrational thought, since it will make me feel depressed, it might "take me back there". So of course, this leads me to monitor all my thoughts and to blame myself whenever I have a negative/irrational thought.
> Is anyone else out there traumatized by an intense period of depression? Does anyone else blame themselves for thinking negative thoughts? Is anyone else phobic of depression?
>
> PeteHi Pete,
I have SAD (seasonal affective disorder) so each year from late August I take 5HTP & St. John's Wort & a homeopathic remedy to ward off the depression that comes with SAD. Each year I sort of forget to begin these things by mid-August at least, so by the last week of August I quickly go down into depression. I am very fortunate in that I come out if I do the above stuff, plus use a light lamp for a few weeks. I can relate to the fear, since when I feel it beginning I get frantic & wonder how I can possibly bear to feel like I've felt before.
I usually have fear when the leaves fall off the trees & everything becomes grey & brown & I know that several months of cold, often gloomy winter are ahead of me because my worst depression was a few winters ago...the curl up in fetal position & can't get out of bed kind.As far as feeling badly for thinking negative thoughts....I am a worrier & have problems with anxiety. Basically with thinking thoughts that create uncomfortable emotions & feelings!
I believe in "The Law of Attraction" also, so since I believe that basically I create my own reality, I get pretty darned stressed when I find myself thinking negative stuff & worrying about things in the future that haven't happened....worrying that I'm causing crappy stuff to happen in the future! It's pretty stressful.
Kath
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