Posted by deerock on September 2, 2009, at 11:21:44
i feel like there is something going on with my therapist and i that is not good.
she keeps referring to my having problems "of the self," which i research online and find out that its just a psychodynamic view of a personality disorder (ive written about this on here before so forgive me for the repetition). when i try to confront her about her belief that i am suffering from a personality disorder, she refuses to say yes and instead asks me what my concerns are.
i keep saying that i cannot work with someone who believes that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. and she says stuff like "we all have things that we need to work on."
And I will say "if youre telling me my personality is disordered, youre telling me im fundamentally flawed. I cannot work with someone who holds this perspective of me."
She replies "i think of you as someone who is committed, and working really hard and really wants to get somewhere with this work..why do you see only the negative aspect of it?"
so what concerns me is that our sessions are basically taken up by my fighting her and arguing with her about her views of what is wrong with me. we really dont get to make much progress because im just railing against the idea that she thinks im flawed. and she never says "no you arent." she always says youre working on something. and to that i respond with "youre giving me a diplomatic answer to the idea that there is soemthing wrong with me. youre not saying no." and then i will go on to tell her
"youre telling me there is something wrong with me that goes well beyond what most people have wrong with them." and she will say "i do not know the statistics."writing this post made me tired. going to these sessions is draining...and i feel like its not really helpful.
thanks for reading.
poster:deerock
thread:915399
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