Posted by annierose on August 29, 2009, at 16:51:45
--- after a two week vacation. I guess I forget how I handled past vacations and I forget how hard they can be.
My feelings always seem to take me by surprise --- the vacum in my life when I don't have therapy. I see her three times a week and she is a huge support system in my life (even as I push her away).
On the plus side, I did enjoy the extra time in my schedule. I didn't feel as rushed those three mornings a week. But overall, I felt sad. And when I wallow in the sadness, in spills into feeling stupid ... and the slippery slope of negatively continues.
And I know the first session back is typically disappointing --- at least for me. She'll be all refreshed, rested and tan and ask in her chipper tone, "So how did the past two weeks go?" And I'll say, "fine" and then the silence will begin until I grab onto a subject matter.
Of course, I could always cancel. But I never do.
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