Posted by alexandra_k on August 8, 2009, at 8:18:02
In reply to letting go, posted by alexandra_k on August 8, 2009, at 8:12:03
i will have to talk to my mother... about the financial aspect of medical school. i've decided that that is what i want to do when i'm finished up here. if i can make it financially feasible. study the undergrad stuff (memorization is actually pretty fun in its own special way) and go to the gym and drink my face off after every exam... thats a lifestyle that could work out well... then once the training is done just a couple days work a week. if thats all that i'm up to. thats feasible. the rest of the time as my own. thats feasible. i think... i could have a pretty good life, actually.
just throw myself into my life. world of warcraft and the gym and study and work and (((sleep))) just throw myself into my life, really. figure out some social stuff and really... i get uncomfortable when people get too close. and i can learn to manage the loneliness... i really think that is the best way. i don't want a family, really. i don't want or need a family at all. that isn't what is good for me now.
its kind of too late for me. but that is okay. there are many different ways to live a life. many different ways to live a valuable life. can put something back into helping others so it isn't exactly a-social. and really... why was i so busy before trying to be something that i'm just not?
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