Posted by rskontos on July 29, 2009, at 14:22:25
In reply to Dissociate, posted by emilyp on July 28, 2009, at 21:51:07
For me, I lose time and I don't know what happens during that time. However, part of me still functions because the other people around don't know that me, the conscious me, isn't aware of what is being said or done. I often come back not knowing what was said or done and that can be scary. I have in the past lost days and even weeks. I have come too in very bad places/situations. So it is not a good thing sometimes. Only rarely now am I still present but unable to control what is being said or done and this to me is the worst. Sometimes I feel like I am floating above my body watching the action and again can't participate. Sometimes I see the world in a tunnel or like a movie or so dissconnected I don't really recognize myself.
I still do this alot. When I go out in public it is almost a given I will dissappear (dissociate) at least once during the time out and sometimes more depending on the situation.
I started a new job this year and would dissociate on the job 4-6 times a day. It was very hard. Then the panic attacks got worse.
They (panic attacks) are still not great.
I hope this clarifies it more.
rsk
I have bought things I don't remember, in high school I would lose entire days at schools only to be given a test back that I had no memory of taking. That happened so many times. Or meeting people I did not remember meeting yet they knew my name and I did not know theirs. So hard to get through one of those encounters without letting on you don't know who the heck you are talking to.
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