Posted by Dinah on July 19, 2009, at 14:23:37
In reply to Re: My pdoc also thinks I look depressed. » MidnightBlue, posted by Dinah on July 9, 2009, at 21:58:18
Definitely not ok.
More unstable like I get sometimes. Urges to hurt myself, anxiety, irritability, thinking that isn't as clear as I'd like.
I associate depression more with the times when I can't shake the fog from my head, and I can barely summon the enormous energy needed to sit upright, never mind swing my legs off the bed.
I've been doing some painting on my long term paint the house interior project. So energy must not be a problem.
My therapist keeps telling me I am getting better, and I keep getting discouraged that even with Risperdal and experience, these things still happen to me, and I still can't seem to stop them even if I grab hold of the insight needed to know I'm in this loop.
Not that he is taking it too lightly. He's scheduled a few extra appointments for me, and spoken to me seriously a few times.
This time it's mood instability, another time it might be depression, or one of my obsessions.
It's discouraging.
I suppose the bright side is that I haven't hurt myself. I haven't even come enormously close to hurting myself. That seems to be very important to my therapist. I tell him that eating way too much (which I *am* doing) is worse for my health than what he is worried about.
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