Posted by frida on July 16, 2009, at 16:21:59
Hi everyone..
donīt know if everyone remembers me...
Well Iīve been in T for 9 years or so, mostly because of childhood sexual abuse issues...
and my T has been great to me, she has been so committed to our work together and so open...
SHe has shared that she loves me very much and I have told her the same.
Well I havenīt seen her since february because I had a baby..in feb I was 7 months pregnant and I saw her then...but when I was 8 and 9 I didnīt go because it wasnīt safe for me to travel.
We have stayed in touch all this time, through email and phone.I have sent her lots of pictures of my little baby and my husband even called her from the hospital when my baby was born.
She has been loving to me, she called me for my birthday, sent me mails, thanked me for sharing the pictures of my baby...
Now itīs winter here , my baby is 3 months old, and thereīs a pandemia here,as in Mexico and USA..so I canīt go to see her...To see her I have to travel 1 hour and a half by car , so I need 4 hours more or less..
I miss her a lot, because what weīve been sharing doesnīt feel like therapy..i have emailed her sharing how i feel..but mostly weīve shared everyday things, like how my baby is doing, and how i feel being a mother.. and things like that.I guess everything has changed because I feel like a different person being a mother. I feel Iīd give my life for my baby, heīs the most important person in my life...and now I feel I have to be strong for him.
I donīt know for sure whatīs going to happen in my therapy, I donīt feel ready not to see my T anymore...
Weīve agreed that weīll wait till spring and till this influenza alert is over...
but I am not sure how often I will be able to see her and whatīs going to happen. I used to see her once a week.
I feel grateful that sheīs been so with me and that sheīs been in touch with me these months, since my baby was born..
I feel her close because she sees pictures of my baby, she calls me to ask me how I am, how the baby is doing..she says sheīs thrilled for me because I have this baby in my life...and she is the only person who knows how much that means to me...I guess I wanted to share this...
I donīt know exactly what Iīm looking for or asking...
I guess I feel a little uncertain about my T relationship after not seeing my T for so long. Over the phone it is not the same...though it does help...but when we talk itīs not therapy , itīs more like a ..check in...anyway, I feel really grateful to have my baby in my life and to be able to share that happiness with my T somehow.Well, just wanted to share this,
Thank you for listening,
Love,
Frida
poster:frida
thread:907110
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