Posted by sadlittlegirl on July 8, 2009, at 22:56:04
This morning I saw my psychiatric nurse practitioner for med management. There has been some things that have happened lately that resulted in him starting me on 2 new meds over the last couple of months. Direct communication between the psych and my T never happened before the recent incidents. After I saw him 2 weeks ago, he told me to have my T call him. I let her know at my next session with her and gave her the number for the psych's office. She left him a message and let me know that she never heard back from him.
Fast forward to this morning when I followed up with the psych. I asked him why he did not call my T back... he said she never called. I told him that I heard her leave the message during my session with her. Turns out he never got the message from the receptionist. He tells me my T should call his cell phone. I told him I didn't know the number, so he wrote it down and told me it was not for emergencies, just for messages.
This afternoon I saw my T. I gave her my psych's cell phone number and relayed the message that she should leave some times that are good for him to call back. I forget how my T phrased it, but the idea was that something is seriously wrong if he doesn't get messages from the receptionist at the office. She said that he could call her. I told her I had not given him her number and I won't be seeing him for another 2 weeks. Because my T's going on vacation and I won't be seeing her for 2 weeks, I didn't want to waste much more time on it and moved on to other things I wanted to talk to her about.
I left my T a voice mail before I went to class this evening because I remembered something I forgot to tell her during the session. Since I was already leaving her a message, I also mentioned that the whole situation about whether or not she would call my psych bothered me a little. I said that I shouldn't let it get to me, that they never talked before so why should I be concerned that they're not talking now. I told her I wasn't going to mention it to my psych again and that I don't care if they ever talk. I also pointed out that it was better that I brought it up in the voice mail instead of during the session because by the time I see her again in 2 weeks she will have forgotten and I won't have to talk about it.
During a break in the middle of class, I left my T another voice mail telling her how well I did on my mid-term exam. I also wondered out loud to her if this whole situation where the psych tells me to have her call him and she tells me to have the psych call her is what it feels like to be a child of divorce. Then I said that I guess I can empathize with kids who have been through divorce. Once again I told her that it was better that I had not told her in person that I was annoyed by the situation because this way she will not remember what I said by the time I see her again and I will not have to deal with it.
Why does stuff like this always happen when my T is about to go on vacation? We have a good relationship built on mutual trust. I love her the way a daughter would... I see her as more of a maternal figure than my abusive mother ever has been to me. On the rare occasions that I am upset with her, it always bothers me. The easiest way to explain it is that I value the relationship I have with her and I see my anger as a threat to our relationship. This sucks so much right now!
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thread:905727
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