Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 4, 2009, at 22:08:02
In reply to Re: Dynamic Infinity » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Daisym on July 4, 2009, at 12:33:05
Universal Counsiousness - That's intresting. Yet, well, actually thanks Daisy, you know, no one has ever gone indepth with me about this stuff. I've read on it, or stuff similiar to it, like...mmm (self-awareness) Yet a therpist taught me, this medititation, that you know (In Yoga) you feel this "Cool breeze" going by your eyebrow, it didnt work, what happened, this "Magnetic, feel's like a vortex, "radiating - emiting" opened, and you know about things that some people don't". Not to say, well actually no, you can send a signal to someone, or create a magnetic field. Yet right now i'm going through the most worst suffering, no one could imagine, it's called living with abuse.
Yet....the imaination can "sync" into reality, when you make it, kinda logic mixed with harmony.
that's all, why do I have this? why didnt I just...get a cool breeze. And going 360 degree's, is this a dream? because what i'm living in is, it's a nightmare, It's like you don't think you are in reality "Egg" feeling, seperation, from alot of event's that took place. The mind somehow, reality can bend, like the theroy of reletivity, and mind can be ... aware of things not normal.
So that's all, i wished I could go back to 2005, and start over. Yet, this is a "dream", i'm living in. I slept 23 hour's, to get away from (these people I live with) shut the door, and get out, and pray they won't come and antagonize, and start a fight. Yet, when a parent becomes evil, you sense something else....somethind died in them, and there another person for a while, and then "boom" everything is back to normal. Yet, i keep, that "note" these events happened. What could be a delusion, (which I know, can be) yet, when reality become's to much for you to bear, I've never experienced this....."steched, magnetic, like I'm a ghost or something". I'm alive! Yet, I've been abused, pretty bad. It comes to a point, where the mind see's behind what is "evil", and why it's happening. I'm learning, stuff, you would never think, the worst nightmare still going, and still you feel your still in dream. "Fog"
Wierd....
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