Posted by yellowbird01 on June 16, 2009, at 18:57:51
In reply to Re: please? hello?, posted by FindingMyDesire on June 16, 2009, at 18:35:17
Thanks FMD. I'm sorry youre struggling too... I certainly dont expect everyone to respond, particularly if you're not doing well yourself. We've all definitely been there...
In response to your post on the thread above, T called me back finally on Fri afternoon. I was in the store and missed her call.. she said she'd be busy most of the rest of the day but try calling her back.. tried 4-5 times but nothing. And was out of town over the weekend so nothing. I saw her today before meeting with my aunt. It was okay.. good but didnt shake me up badly or anything. I called her tonight and she called back.. I posted about that in resposne to twinleaf in this thread...
I love my T. I really do. I first began seeing her when I was 18yo.. seen her on and off for years. Never before have I felt so badly after seeing/talking to her sometimes. I dont know if it's that shes right and I dont want to face the things I;m hearing, or if shes just not on her game like she used to be... but shes always been so good, I have to guess it's my issue. She has always been my safety net in my mind, even when I was with other Ts... "If I need to, I'll make the longer drive and switch back to (current T)". I finally did and now.. I dont know. I need nice T back. I've discussed this with her, but she feels my defensive reaction to the dx stuff is mostly just that.. defensive and resistance. I dont know who is right.
I did see my aunt today. No big information gained.. except to learn that several other family members apparently behave in the same confusing, disconnected way my mother does. Aunt suggested my mother could have aspergers and I had never thought of that before.. but it makes very good sense. I told T who agreed it makes sense, but then flipped it on me and asked what it would be like to hear I may have qualities of that. What the hell. I rambled about that point above so I wont do it again.
Thanks for posting, especially when you're not doing well. What's going on with you? If you'd like to talk as well, I'm definitely here, even though I'm not in the greatest mind either.
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