Posted by SLS on June 15, 2009, at 15:25:09
Hi.
I frequently have dreams of being bullied by my very real nemeses from high school days. Seeing as these things occurred over 30 years ago an as an adolescent, I am not sure quite what to make of them. They become more frequent when my depression gets worse. When my depression begins to remit, I am more assertive in my dreams and do not come upon such incidents.
As an adult, I thought I had processed most, if not, all of the issues surrounding my experiences of being bullied from ages 10-18. Well, I guess now that I see it in writing, it is easy to see how such a wound might not have healed properly.
I must be missing something. I want to work through this, but I am not sure where to begin looking. My therapist feels that there is probably something that remains unresolved. My instincts tell me that she is right. Maybe I still need to meet the approval of these bullies? Maybe I can never meet the approval of anyone from high school while I remain depressed? I don't know. I have not gone to any of our class reunions.
Any ideas?
Thanks.
- Scott
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