Posted by obsidian on June 15, 2009, at 0:43:35
it's from the little marijuana binge I just went on.
it's like I know I am in my body, but I feel disconnected from it, and I got some pretty intense deja vu today
so, the thing is I've naturally got to tell pdoc when I talk with him right?
and I already told T that I used once.
I feel like a disappointment though.
I know I am not thinking as clearly as I could right now, I'm kind of foggy, but it'll pass if I give it a chance.
one of the worst things though is that when I smoke a lot I can't stay connected in therapy. I feel so apathetic, there's nothing to talk about, I'm not really there. and in general I just start living in my own little world, even more than I might anyway. The demands of reality don't agree with such a state, and therein lies the problem.
I've got no reason for posting this, except I suppose to clarify things.
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