Posted by FindingMyDesire on June 10, 2009, at 19:35:29
In reply to Feeling anxious, posted by Dinah on June 9, 2009, at 13:29:15
Hi Dinah,
Coming late to this post. (Sorry!)One sentence caught my eye that I want to respond to in particular:
"I'm lazy and selfish and think uncharitable thoughts far too often."
I know that's just your inner critic. When I read this thread I notice that she is louder even than usual. I don't know anything about OCD, but does this happen? I hope it's OK for me to ask and point this out.
Often I find that your posts carry a good deal of balance between the self-criticism and the compassion that you can hold for yourself. Of course, that's nothing compared to the compassion you hold, and so clearly articulate, for all of us here on Babble, your husband, and your T (and I'm sure your son, etc).
And let's see, compassion takes energy, selfless-ness, and charitable thoughts! I'm Just Saying...
You are definitely not a horrible person. I know you know that, but it's good to hear it reflected back sometimes. Actually, it's better to frame it in the positive, so I'll do that a few times:
You are a terrific person!
You are a terrific person!
You are a terrific person!
You are a terrific person!
You are a terrific person!
Besides, your mother sounds extrememly difficult and you are doing/going to do the best that you can do while still taking care of yourself and your immediate family. And that is totally, totally fair and good.
Just my 2 cents.
:-)
FMD
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