Posted by FindingMyDesire on June 2, 2009, at 11:45:24
In reply to Re: Thinking of you. Are you OK?, posted by blahblahblah on June 1, 2009, at 22:56:41
> yeah i understand exactly what you're saying. Sometimes i wonder how this is helping me when it hurts so much. it would be easier to just run away and forget therapy ever happened. I sometimes get angry that no one ever warned me this could happen. but for some reason i stick around, i guess because i'd rather have her in my life with it hurting me than not have her at all.
I totally get this feeling! Totally. Almost feels like your only choice is a painful one - and the one without her is just worse.
When the healing moments happen, though, I am convinced the pain is worth it. If there is a way to let her in and to be with her when you are feeling the worst of it, it can create (I believe) some of the real shifts and real *moments* of connectedness. And that can be unbelievably healing. (And feel just plain, fu*kn' amazing!)
But I'm having a very rare moment of clarity after one such "moment" with my T... so grains of salt all around.
I'm projecting a desire that we all have more and more of these moments with our therapists!
FMD
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