Posted by blahblahblah on May 14, 2009, at 3:11:43
Hey,
This is my first thread. I have been seeing my therapist for nearly a year now. It is great. I do have extremely strong maternal transference but I discuss it with her. We have come to a point now though where for me to move on I need to get my emotional baggage out. I don't know how to. It feels so stuck. I was psychically abused by my mum for a few years as a young child (munchausen by proxy), placed in foster care for a while, then taken back home and lived in an extremely disfunctional household until I was an adult. I am 26 now. The thing is I feel no anger, or pain about it all. I had at least 15 operations and spent 2 years in a hospital during the abuse so you'd think I'd have anger towards people but still I feel nothing. If i feel any pain I push it away because I don't feel I am ok to break. It all comes out through anxiety and mood disorders. My therapist says I go emotionally numb when things get hard as this is what I'm used to. Can anyone help me in ways to get this pain out of my system once and for all. Sorry this is such a long thread. :)
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