Posted by obsidian on May 12, 2009, at 21:30:53
I understand why people go into their jobs and start shooting everyone
(and don't worry I am not going to do that)
I am sooooo leaving that place when I get the chance, but I fear that will not be for a long time given my financial circumstances and other things. I work my butt off my friends, I sincerely do, at a significant emotional cost to myself. My job in some ways is also dangerous. I am very much devalued often by a lot of people with less education than me (no I am not an academic snob, but again I worked my butt off there too). Essentially I am told that I don't do enough work by people who don't care to notice what I am doing. I do not wish to be a martyr, and I desperately want to change things. I fear my only recourse is to start writing nasty things inside the staff bathrooms, something has got to give.
and guess how my session was last week?
well it was about 2 minutes long. That's right. It takes me about an hour to get home from work, and another 45 minutes further to get to therapy, so that was effectively 1 hour and 45 minutes of driving. I wait, about 15 minutes past my appointment time. I get in, T says we will have to end early. 2 minutes later he gets a call, says we have to stop, due to some emergency.
You know though, it wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't been at least 15 minutes late for the previous three sessions (T said because of emergency calls)
suffice it to say, my efforts in life in general are not paying off. I am on way too much medication, it is just too much f*ck*ng effort to keep myself together. I'm feeling pretty f*ck*ng emergent I tell you what. I shall go promptly out into the street and start screaming.
thank you.
poster:obsidian
thread:895436
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20090421/msgs/895436.html