Posted by raisinb on April 9, 2009, at 13:07:02
I posted in TG's thread above (bit of a hijack, sorry :)) about my pdoc appointment yesterday.
I went in and wasn't doing so well (obviously). We talked about tenure and therapy. I wasn't going to get into therapy, but she kind of pressured me into it. I kept saying, "oh, long story," and she kept saying, "well, give me the short version." I ended up telling her a lot about it. I've only been seeing her for about eight months and have never talked in depth about therapy before.
I finally ended up telling her a lot of details. She kept saying, "Raisin, that's a huge red flag" (about my therapist crying) and "you need a healthier counseling relationship," and then told me to get her a list of providers so she could recommend someone on my insurance. I was going to go away and think about it, but she kept saying, "so, you'll get me a list?" "When?" I told her if I left my therapist I wouldn't be doing so well. She said, "sure, it'll be a loss," but that I could make more progress with someone else.
Finally, we sort of compromised on me signing a release so that she could call my therapist and discuss things. My pdoc's practice is fairly busy and it often takes them days to answer calls, call in scrips, etc., so I figured I'd have several days before this conversation happened.
But my pdoc called me as I was driving home. Evidently I'd written down the wrong phone # for my therapist (my brain wasn't working--or maybe it was unconscious resistance) and she was calling to get the right one. I gave it to her.
So I think it's safe to assume that by this afternoon (when I technically have a session, but am not planning on going), my therapist may very well have been chewed out by my pdoc. My pdoc is a very strong personality and has chewed me out (in a professional, but a take-no-prisoners way) before. I am sure she's different with other clinicians, but I am worried about this situation.
Am I splitting? I didn't intend to. But...
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