Posted by Deneb on April 7, 2009, at 11:18:22
I had therapy with my pdoc today. It was kind of intense, I cried.
Anyways, we got to exploring why it is important for me that I think Dr. Bob cares and my pdoc thinks it is because if Dr. Bob cares, doesn't want me to die, etc, that means I am a worthwhile person and am lovable. I couldn't make the connection, pdoc tried to get me to connect this, but I couldn't. She eventually made the connection for me.
I also told pdoc about how my Mom used to turn my sister and me against my Dad. She would make us feel guilty for liking our Dad. She always put him down. One time I was little and I think my parents got into an argument and I think maybe my Dad hit my Mom. My Mom started crying and told me and my sister to hit our Dad back. I couldn't do it, I was scared and I didn't want to hit my Dad. My younger sister hit my Dad. It was so scary.
Anyways, pdoc thinks I actually want some sort of relationship with my Dad even though I've been alienated from him by my Mom. Pdoc thinks Dr. Bob is like a fantasy perfect Dad for me. I am attached to Dr. Bob because I never attached to my Dad.
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