Posted by obsidian on March 26, 2009, at 22:34:48
In reply to Re: I let people avoid me... » obsidian, posted by Dinah on March 26, 2009, at 10:33:23
I'm ok,
but I was talking to my therapist a week ago (after he had come back after two weeks) and I said in response to a question about what I was thinking was that I was trying to remember that he was "safe" that he wouldn't hurt mesometimes it's easier to be avoidant
it's so hard to feel safe
I don't want to know people a lot of the timeabout the med change question...I think it's the pot
I had stopped smoking pot...for about three freaking monthsand I've just started again...
except this time I've giving the stuff away, I'm like 'take this before I smoke it dammit!' and I am trying not to get used to this mode of behavior
I feel like it's sucking me in
I just want to zone the hell outso I have to get rid of what I have (via donation or smoking) and then not buy any
but I don't want to talk about it in therapy...I just want to do it for a little while, then stop before it causes any problems. I want it to be a non-issue.
I want to be able to have the stuff around and leave it alone.
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