Posted by seldomseen on March 1, 2009, at 8:59:03
In reply to Still here, but barely... trigger?, posted by MusicLuv on February 28, 2009, at 22:40:31
I'm glad you are still here - and barely absolutely counts.
Regarding your night out, I suspect that most of what your are feeling (guilt? shame? regret?) doesn't belong to you at all. I think it is a resurfacing of some old old feelings that are hitting you inordinately hard. If this is the case, just keep telling yourself that these are the past and may have very little to do with the reality of the day. They still hurt, but trying to put some distance and some perspective on how you feel may help.
I've certainly experienced nights out where things just went a little too far. Trust me, it's really not that big of a deal in the larger scope of things. I am so grateful that you didn't get hurt, or hurt someone else in your drive home.
Regarding your T, her calling or not can be interpreted in many different ways. Personally, I usually interpret it as you do, but that, in fact, is usually a misinterpretation and it usually has nothing to do with me at all. When do you see her again?
Please take care of yourself and peace to you.
Seldom.
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