Posted by FindingMyDesire on February 27, 2009, at 11:11:13
In reply to Funny, I treat this board a little like I do my T, posted by FindingMyDesire on February 26, 2009, at 22:22:36
Thanks WIP & antigua,
I really appreciate it. I could not sleep last night at all. This cycle with my T happens so often that you would think that I would know by now that it will be OK in a couple of weeks. I guess I do suspect that (unless I really do quit therapy all together), but I don't *know* it inside. I just want too much. It makes me want to not want anything. I just want to cut off the wanting. And just thinking that hurts because I know I'd be erasing me then (by erasing I mean denying my importance or worth nothing worse than that). I just can't seem to have both - me and the need/want/desire that I feel when I'm in touch with me. I think I'm just rambling now.It sure is good to come back to this place. Don't anyone feel like I'm reliable though. I really can be such a terrible, terrible friend. Not because I mean to be. I can be very loving. I'm just not consistent. And I hate that about myself.
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