Posted by LadyBug on February 18, 2009, at 12:25:03
I've been wanting to express this somewhere all morning. Since I can't tell my T I have to tell you guys. (T is retired now for those that don't know my story.)
I had a dream about my T last night. I dreamed she came to my house to visit me. She pulled up in this big huge fancy car. Her husband was driving and he came with her. She was telling me how much she's enjoying her retirement. I hugged her several times and told her how much I loved her. She stayed and checked out my house and my room. I just kept hugging her over and over telling her how much I missed her and loved her. it was so wonderful.
When I woke up, I had no one to tell. In the past I could call and leave her a voice mail or tell her about my dream at our next visit. It made me sad to think that not only I can't share this with her, I can't even see her at all. I miss her today. I am in tears thinking about her, good tears mostly.
There is a woman in my neighborhood that looks so much like my T. I imagine when I see her that it's my T. Oh, how I wish.
Take advantage of every min. you have with your T. I wish I had more of them. I miss her so much. I do love her and what she helped me accomplish.Last night I had my appointment with the APRN I see for meds. She suggested I get referrals from my T for other T's. I called and left a message for my T in December, before she actually retired. She called and left me a voice mail a few weeks back to give me some names. But for now, I don't want to see one. The APRN thought now is the time for me to see one. When things are going ok for me. You get to know them, they get to know you and when things aren't so good the T knows how to work with you. It's harder to start out with a T when you are in a crisis and they don't know you. Start when things are going ok. OK, maybe???
Hummmmmmmmmmmm something to think about.
Thanks for letting me share this, I had to tell someone. I miss my T today very much. I haven't felt this way for several weeks. I'm sure it's normal.LadyBug
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