Posted by Sharon7 on February 6, 2009, at 19:13:34
In reply to I called my therapists office..., posted by sharon7 on February 6, 2009, at 12:04:44
Thanks everybody for saying calling was the right thing to do, even though my t didn't get the message. It was more a personal triumph for me anyway for being willing to back down and act more grown up.
I'll be anxious to write after my appt on Wed. Dang. I'm going to be her last patient again. I've seen her last lots of time and she has always been just as attentive as if I had seen her first thing. I think I was just still pissed at her when I was ranting and kind of blaming her for my behavior during our last session. And it may very well be that she really wasn't too thrilled with having to sit for 50 minutes with me saying I didn't have anything to talk about and watch me stare at the ceiling. One time I actually told her (looked her in the eye and everything!) that "she was not very nice to me last time." I could tell it took her off guard. I think she was just so shocked that I was able to express that to her. Once she recovered (lol!) she said something like 'I probably sensed her frustration because she doesn't like it when her patients aren't doing good' (and I have not been doing good.) I could tell she was being so careful with her answer because she did not want to give me any reason to regret expressing myself that way. So maybe you guys are right that she really does want me to be able to tell her what I'm feeling.
Hey, you guys are gonna help her out a lot. (and help me out a lot with her!) Oh man, I better not tell her about this site because i would just die if she ever saw some of the things I wrote! Yipes! Maybe I should have come up with a more creative user name! Not that she would ever have time to do that anyway, and besides, I'm not the center of her universe (or anyone elses.) Boy, she's sure like to know her saying that to me last week sure stuck!
I hope this was a good day for you all.
Thanks for all your support and encouragement.
Sharon (o:
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