Posted by stellabystarlight on January 23, 2009, at 15:45:54
In reply to Re: My bubble has burst » stellabystarlight, posted by Wittgensteinz on January 17, 2009, at 16:33:55
Oh my gosh, Witti, I had no idea what you went through during your "down" cycle.
I feel so bad about my last post to you now. I hope you didn't feel as though I was
minimizing your struggles. I am so sorry for not understanding earlier.I hope you hear from your pdoc soon...it must be puzzling to have differing opinions
from your T and Pdoc, but it's not surprising since they come from different points of view.I think you are very functional and you should be so proud of yourself, Witti.
You blow me away with how you can articulate everything you're going through,
mentally and emotionally, even with all the challenges of school and "depression".
You seem to always make good choices in the end - such as writing to pdoc,
meeting with the school to find a good plan B, registering for exams, etc., and
writing - "...see the good in going back to something and not giving up but the experience
I had was one of disillusionment and from my experience it is sometimes best to find another way."And your replies are so grounded and appropriate...you're very generous with your posts.
I think you are such a cool and amazing person, Witti...and so young, too! :)And it's ok to want to crawl under a rock...I do it all the time and call it self-preservation.
I hope you can visit camp comfort soon and nurture yourself.By the way, I did go skiing, and it took me out of my "darkness" alright.
I had to completely focus on surviving...not falling off the lift and dying,
getting off the lift without causing a pile-up, not breaking my bones
while wildly skidding down on 2 sticks,not freezing to death in my stylish but
flimsy ski outfit, etc. But, boy was it ever fun! I loved it!
I was the last one to get off the mountain and went 3 times already.I was in a bad state that day, and reading your post made me feel not so alone.
So, I just decided to go...and now I have the ski bug and a fun challenge to look forward to.
Your post gave me the push I needed...I don't even know exactly how your post motivated me,
but I want to thank you, Witti. I'm going to really think about how and what in your post
got me to take action, and write to you later when I figure it out.I also hope in time we can find our place in society and be a reasonably fulfilled human being,
but I think you already are. :)Stellabystarlight
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