Posted by muffled on December 12, 2008, at 15:59:24
In reply to Re: DDNOD and/or Dissociative Disorders, posted by sparklenfade2black on December 12, 2008, at 15:06:09
>It helps to know that others do the same thing. More than anything I have loss of time, my children say I don't act any different but I don't remember and that has driven me mad at times!
*Do you mean DDNOS ot DDNOD, cuz I dunno what DDNOD is?
I like to say I just DD. Its is such a broad spectrum of experience.
For me I do not get so much lack of remembering, beyond my natural terrible memory. There are occasionally blank spots, but not often.
I can act quite differently in my way, and even that might not be considered a 'disorder' except for the fact, I notice it belatetedly sometimes,so I am monitoring all the time in the background, and sometimes in the past I have behaved oddly around my kids. Nothing really off the wall, but enuf, now that I have spent some time thinking on it, I understand why they react the way they do sometimes to me :-( I must have been confusing for them :-( Though they didn't know any different. But I am working on making repair and doing better than I have been with my kids.
Sometimes kids don't know if you are 'different' so much. cuz its what they are used to.
Its not like I wear hugely diff clothes, or look somehow markedly different. Its more my 'tone', attitude. Choice of words. Some parts just ignore the kids, others are very patient. Sometimes I frown hugely on swearing, sometimes I swear way too much. I walk differently too. My voice can be somewhat different, but not too hugely.
Proly more noticalble to me but not others is the noise/confusion/conflict that goes on in my head and which I call 'noise'.
So I think unless you knew what you were looking for, you would never notice.
Dissociative disordersa are commonly one where you try and hide what is going on, and hide who you are. So its not saurprizing noone notices.
I was never so shocked when I got a new T expereienced in DD, and she would notice switches, UGH!!!! and that threw me for a loop. But now I am calmer and better at hiding it from her too!!! HA!!!!! Though I don't suppose I should be trying to hide from her.
My pet name for DD is confusion diorder cuz it SO dang confusing.
Dunno if all this drivel is useful attal.
Goto go,
Nice to meet ya,
Muffled
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