Posted by Wittgensteinz on November 6, 2008, at 11:46:50
In reply to Re: Hey Witti, you ok?, posted by Nadezda on November 5, 2008, at 16:24:38
Thank you, it has really touched me that someone was thinking about me. I'm sorry I've not posted an update but I will. This week my mother is visiting, so right now I'm holding everything in - so right this moment I feel zilch and as far as she's concerned I'm the picture of health and ladiladida...
I'll post more soon... things haven't exactly been repaired between T and I but let's just say things are moving on and the intensity of the rupture/crisis has lessened, which is good. I'm not sure I will get the repair I'd like but I think I will survive. It's almost like there is too much going on at the moment, too fast and not enough time to process through all of it. I was in a great deal of pain last week, psychologically I mean, but this week I can feel nothing - I suppose a survival mood if you like - auto-pilot.
This weekend I'll have more time and privacy to write some things. I'd like to say, although I only read your post very quickly Rskontos, but I know that feeling exactly about going back to studies (ok I'm at a different lifestage to you) but that fear of failing and the 'is it worth the risk/effort?' - I swing between having the confidence/energy and total disillusion. I also have a strong conviction that my T is mistaken about my capabilities, that I have him fooled.
Anyway, I need to go now - take care everyone. I'm thinking of you too.
Witti
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