Posted by DAisym on November 3, 2008, at 23:13:09
In reply to PTSD and CSA stuff (hope that triggers obvious), posted by Partlycloudy on November 3, 2008, at 15:26:18
Onwards. Totally.
It is a slow climb and sometimes the path narrows in ways we don't expect. But it seems like you have a great team working with you and they all want to help ease your pain.
I couldn't work through the book, it was too triggering for me. But it was important to tell the memory or memories over and over again. I told what I remembered, how it felt, how it feels now, what the dreams were and I told it from all different states and ages. Often I feel like I'm in shock again and we go back to reestablishing safety. There is a balance to things and you have to guard against retraumatizing yourself. Half the time I think I've made it all up...the other half the time I'm terrified no one will believe me.
I find that when I'm really falling apart, organizing my kitchen or baking works for me. There is something very primal in cooking - I think because of the mixing process and the smells. I never want to eat it, I just want to make it. Pretty weird.
Take gentle care,
Daisy
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