Posted by happyflower on October 26, 2008, at 18:16:51
It seems like maybe that with old man T it was hard for me to move on, maybe because he protected him so much. So instead of me feeling heard and believed I always felt like he didn't believe what he did or believe how hurt I really was. Now don't get me wrong, I still have fond thoughts about old man T, he did so many things to help me.
With lady T I don't have to worry about hurting her by what I say, I can express my anger about 1st a lot better. Plus I get some validation not only for my anger but for what he did that was clearly wrong and hurtful for a T to do.
So far her being a women T really hasn't played too much into my therapy. I have no reason not to trust her. Plus I think I have gotten better over the past couple of years with females. I am making friends and making progress in the area. I still long for a "best friend" like I had in high school where you can share everything and have fun together on a closer level.I think maybe part of me feeling better is also with my AD I am now taking at the new dose. Finally after about 1 1/2 yrs. we have the meds right or maybe I am just better. I know depression can take care of itself in time for some cases. But I am not going off my meds right now to find out, especially after having a few weeks of feeling good.
I have recently taken my T's name off my blog and his name no longer comes up with connection to my blog when searched. So part of me got to say what I needed to say, and I believe he did read what I wrote, and so I feel heard. I don't need a response from him, because what he thinks doesn't matter to me. So things are feeling better. (keeping my fingers crossed)
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