Posted by stellabystarlight on October 22, 2008, at 20:59:45
In reply to Has it been worth it?, posted by seldomseen on October 22, 2008, at 18:59:14
My T asked me a similar question while we were reminiscing about my first visit with him, and I was also surprised by the look on his face when I hesitated before saying yes. This only confirmed that this emotionally and monitarily expensive therapy process is way harder on me then it is on him. The irrational side of me has a very hard time accepting this. Simply not fair!
It's great that therapy has helped you so much, Seldom. I can't wait for the day when I can say "I'm better now than I ever have been...I want to live, not as a response or slave to my past." It's so nice to hear about successful therapy stories where the client/patient has found a good fit with a skilled therapist. You seem to have realistic expectations from therapy, understanding the ups and downs, and understanding that it is definitely no cakewalk! I'm glad you're reminding me of this as I'm feeling a bit discouraged, and not feeling very brave about the "downs" of the therapeutic process that I'm experiencing.
Somedays I feel very lucky to have found him, especially when I notice my relationships with friends and family have improved in someways. But...other days, I simply get sick of the obsessive ruminating, and wonder if I might not have been better off without him, who triggers so much for me to work through. Therapy is very hard...I had no idea what I was signing up for a year ago! I hope my journey will work out as well as your journey has.
Stellabystarlight
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