Posted by lucie lu on October 21, 2008, at 13:16:10
In reply to I walked out of therapy today, posted by raisinb on October 20, 2008, at 20:36:54
Raisin,
I was thinking of you the other day, so I'm glad you posted. I'm really sorry though that you have been feeling so terrible. As Phillipa says, depression has been "going around" - I can just see TV commercials for A/Ds, telling us that "the cold, flu and depression season" is just around the corner, so buy blah, blah. I'm joking about it -- gallows humor -- because I've been depressed too lately. I know that for anyone who is depressed, especially for any length of time, it feels simply horrible.
What really leapt out at me from your post is how ineffective your pdoc and T have been at treating your depression. This is especially disheartening since you say you've had severe bouts of it. Did your pdoc just try a reasonable option and it didn't work, but otherwise has a good track record prescribing meds for you? It's hard to tell about your pdoc how much help you might be able to get from that direction, but your T is entirely another story. IMHO, whether she is a good T or not, she sounds like a really bad fit for you. Yes, I do think your T should be able to support you and keep a strong connection to you anytime but certainly when you are feeling so down. She reminds me of that T in the Geico commercial, you know the one where the caveman is in therapy because Geico is "so easy a caveman can do it?" Jeez, I must be watching too much TV if I'm starting to quote commercials.
How would you feel about changing to a new T? I know it's hard to get up the umph to do much when you're depressed; on the other hand, sometimes it can be easier to start with a new person because it's pretty clear what needs to be worked on in the short term!
Anyway, Raisin, it's good to hear from you although I'm sorry that you've been feeling so down. Maybe posting on babble might help just a little, especially while it seems you're not getting helped much by your clinicians.
poster:lucie lu
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