Posted by Cal on October 8, 2008, at 6:20:03
The last few sessions I've used the kleenex box in T's room as a wall. I put it on the floor between us one session and T said, ok, do you wish there was a wall? So then last session I was fiddling around with it, and I had it up on its end and started squeezing it and with the pattern on the box it appeared to be breathing. I smiled with a suppose looking back, a smile of achivement, hey look, it breathes. Just before time was up, T said, do you know what you were doing with the tissues? and I quickly mumbled "no" and then got up to leave. I;m wondering now, what was I doing? T I think has an idea of the meaning behind this. For some reason at that time, I didn't want to be told, I think I felt embarrased? Or prehaps felt she would take away my enjoyment and turn it into something bad/sinister? I wonder what I was trying to bring to life? I don't know, I just know at the moment it appeared the box was alive, I felt this release within me, like suddenly getting the final bit of the puzzle into place, accept thsi puzzle I Have not clue too. I wonder if I have the guts to ask T next time, what was I actually doing by doing this??????
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