Posted by lemonaide on September 26, 2008, at 11:24:59
I believe that me T has helped me, but when he was at the top of his game, he isn't right now, for the last 3 months. I can't afford to slip up right now, I have been doing so much better. I feel getting to know other T's will be useful to me. I need somebody that puts in the same energy into the relationship. I still have fond feeling for my T, and I plan on telling him.
I think working with a female will also help me to trust women better, which if I do become a T, I will be working with more women than men. Soo I am going to go for it.
I have picked out my classes for next semester and I am so excited. One class is in criminal justice called deviant and criminal behavior, and another one is body language, and drugs and behavior. Plus that one internship I started with this summer but quit, has emailed me again wanting me to come back. That feels good, they said they believed me to be a good fit.So when I thought I was throwing everything away because of my depression, I have another chance.
This is all helping me feel more confident. I even want to to clean the house today because I feel good. I am going to make some chicken salad for lunches this weekend, and makes some banana bread with the old bananas we have, and make a crock pot meal for tonight when I won't feel like cooking after cleaning all day.
I guess for me it will be a fresh start toward me reaching my goals.
I know some feel I should fight for my relationship with my T, and I think I have a few times, and although he has helped me, I think he has helped me all he can. I am feeling good about my decision. I actually feel a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
poster:lemonaide
thread:854195
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