Posted by lemonaide on September 25, 2008, at 12:40:49
In reply to Today I see my new T, posted by lemonaide on September 25, 2008, at 7:12:52
Thanks everyone for the good luck. He did some things right, but he was too soft spoken, and I think I would scare the hell out of him. lol He listened well, and it did help to hear my thoughts back at me. But he seemed kinda green to me. Maybe because I have had only T's with at least 20yrs. experience, and my current one 40 yrs. He was cheap too, but he isn't he one for me. He talked so soft like a little birdie, he must have thought I had a big mouth! haha! I truely think I am way beyond his experience level. I need more... um.... something...
I found out how he heard about my T. It was during an insurance meeting, he was getting signed up for a group. Looking for a T group to be a part of, and someone mentioned my T, and then someone else said oh, but I hear he is having medical problems with remembering. And although I am glad it isn't all in my mind, I do think he shouldn't have told me this especially since he knows I am still seeing him.
So I found another one today, and she does EMDR too, and one of her specialties is working with those who have experienced child abuse and other traumas, and unethical T's too. We talked on the phone and she sounds really easy to talk to. She takes a holistic approach to therapy also, whatever that means. I am meeting with her on Monday. She knows I am looking for a new T and that I am still seeing my old one, when I described the problem and when she asked who it was, she said that was who she guessed I was talking about. So It seems a lot of people know about my T , but yet he isn't telling me which is weird because of all the disclosure I am used to with him.
I still have an appointment with my T on Tues. and I did call him this morning and left a message to call me back, he hasn't yet. Soooooo I am still torn on what to do, but it looks like it might be more of an attachment thing, I don't want to leave him because I adore him so much. But it comes down to not what is in my heart, but maybe what is the right thing to do for my recovery. It is so frickin' hard.
Thanks everyone for all your support during this. You all amaze me.
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