Posted by B2chica on September 8, 2008, at 9:09:50
first med, then T.
i posted on med board i started pristiq little over two weeks ago.
first day i didn't notice anything, days two-five were really good after that i started to go back down slowly last few days have been cr@p. last two days have had suicidal thoughts again. (though you know i did have emotional trigger to kind of set depression off but that was thursday) and i'm still down).what happened?
last night i took a xanax but poured the whole bottle into my hand and took a looooog look, staring...wanting to, you know. i cant deal with this.
did pristiq poop out already?
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then T., she just got done telling me i can call her anytime. that i could get extra appt with her if i needed one.
well i called her friday cuz i needed one and she was 'booked'. and now with her schedule she's only seeing clients on thurs fridays.it's making me miss my OLD T. the days when i was protected and saw him two and three days a week.
he took me in any time.
he had a paiger that i could call and talk with someone if i was feeling unstable or that person could contact him if i needed to talk with him...
i miss him...I MISS MY OLD T!THERE I SAID IT.
I WANT MY OLD T BACK! i want the protection i had with him.maybe if i felt protected with my psychiatrist than maybe i wouldnt need the protection with my T. but i dont; feel protected in either place.
i feel so vulnerable. and afraid of myself.
i don't know what to do.
tell me what to do.b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:850941
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