Posted by B2chica on September 5, 2008, at 11:53:51
In reply to Re: Rsk??, posted by B2chica on September 5, 2008, at 10:29:37
why is there no one around today.
i heard from t. she has no time today.
i went out of the building to talk to her and i felt it coming on. i switched while i talked to her. i saw people coming and panicked and curled up next to a big tree and was crying.
it was so weird being out in the wide open and being littleone. she was so terrified.it was awful. i couldn't look at the people, i hope it was no one that knew me.
i hated T at that moment and i told her so. i think i'm still a little hurt. that she wasn't there, that she' coulldn't really help me.
i have to suck up this feeling of hurt today on my own. no one around to help.
no one even around here today.i've tried writing, i've tried destraction, both only work for a little bit.
i still wanna switch, i'm still scared i'm gonna do it in here, God help me so i don't.it all because of memories yesterday. i feel like aren't my own. stupid cr@p.
i hate.
i wanna hurt me.
i hate me.
i hate me inside.
poster:B2chica
thread:850450
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