Posted by onceupon on September 1, 2008, at 13:28:00
In reply to Re: Trying not to call therapist - coming here instead » FindingMyDesire, posted by Poet on August 31, 2008, at 13:50:43
Hi FindingMyDesire,
Your post really resonated with me because I recently had a similar session. Sometimes it feels like my brain locks up because I get flooded with anxiety about what others will think of me when I speak up. Of course, this happens most intensely with my therapist since I work hard not to be my regular self who avoids talking about anything other than the superficial with others. I tried to tell her about this during our last session - and I can't even remember her response - all I can remember is that it was not what I was looking for. What I wanted to hear was that her regard for me won't change no matter what I say, or something like that.
Not to totally hijack your thread, but I felt devastated after the session and really started to wonder why she really doesn't seem to offer reassurance ever. I find this painful and yet, I have the hardest time bringing it up with her. But, my advice to you (to be accepted or discarded, of course) is the same as it is to myself: talk to her. Write it down, as others have suggested. But try, if you can, to recognize that the therapy relationship sometimes needs to be repaired, just like every other relationship. And when you can go back and have a "do-over," sometimes that can be more healing than anything else.
Hope some of that makes sense. Best wishes.
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