Posted by rskontos on August 27, 2008, at 17:27:35
In reply to Re: so i had this memory....*Trigger*, posted by lemonaide on August 27, 2008, at 16:35:34
I have my own sense of flashbacks. I have had so many, I flooded myself. (my thanks to Daisym for this term) and I had to reel myself back in. I couldn't take my flashbacks. I could not make sense of them and to be quite frank I was scared sh*tless of what they meant. Mine too were around abuse and csa. Now they are slowly coming back. I still can't make sense of them but....
Here is my take on this. I have memories that I found out were false. My sister, the one I had been estranged from for so long, set me straight on those memories. See my mind makeup better memories and my brain repressed and hid the bad ones. My sister clued me into the true memories and all their ugliness. Now that she did I still haven't gotten all of them back because i have tried to keep them blocked. I finally opened my mind again.
I don't think flashbacks are made up. That is my take. When you dissociate your brain hides the reality from you. The flashbacks bring it back. But I do think that the perspective you are viewing it is a snapshot in time at the time you were developmental and emotional. So it might be hard to understand because you did not understand it intectually maybe due to age or just because maybe at the time you did not have all the information. And I think the brain stores images in its banks like photos. And maybe when the flashbacks come back you don't get all of them.
That maybe at first you get a little at a time before the whole picture will get clear. And then again maybe some of the data is damaged. Because maybe like memories in general are not always accurate due to incompleteness. I don't know I am not making sense maybe. I have more research to do on this subject.
Just my take. I don't know if the flashbacks at first come back in their entirety. I have though has some pretty fluid ones, just like a movie running. But they were scary and I worked to get out of it.
Anyway, I do think in some ways you need to discuss it B2c but do it when you are ready. Don't flood yourself like i did.
rsk
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