Posted by Jouezmoi on August 25, 2008, at 22:33:33
In reply to Re: Off Accutane,and side effects driving me nuts, posted by marktran on August 25, 2008, at 21:01:10
Dear Marktran (and everyone else),
I know I am a lurker here. I read this forum everyday (sometimes twice a day) but I seldom post.
My fear of death and dying has been plaguing me for the last six years. It hasn't gone away, hasn't lessened and I am somehow learning to live with it by consiously push the thoughts in the background when they pop up. I suufer from hypochondriasis also and have had bouts of hysteria (when my anxiety/ panic attacks get out of hand).
I have found that my fear of death has to do with isolation. I am a loner by nature, and when I feel alone, these fears increase. The times I felt connected to someone, my sense of security improved and the fears diminished. Right now I am alone and death is on my mind almost 24/7. I have also found that it has to do with my control freak nature .. again insecurity. I try to keep very busy and counter my thoughts with "Let go and let God" (trying to let go and give up trying to control .. I cannot control life or death), and by imagining that death will be the start of a new adventure and that I would live on (certain religion belief plays a very important role in psychological health ... the psychology of religion).
I wish my fears would go away, that I would stop imagining that I have every fatal illness in the books, or that I would suddenly get a heart attck or stroke and die (my GPs are fedup with me).
It may or may not be the Accutance. In my case, this just is for me.
poster:Jouezmoi
thread:848096
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