Posted by wishingstar on August 21, 2008, at 6:29:52
In reply to Re: saw oldT again today (long + rambly) » wishingstar, posted by rskontos on August 20, 2008, at 22:11:25
I'm having some posters regret. It's so much more complicated than what I've explained I guess.... I'm not trying to/planning to/etc do therapy with 2 Ts at once. I've been seeing Old T sporadically for session here and there ever since beginning with my current T, and current T is aware of that. She's never expressed a problem with it before. This time there were specific reasons why she had concerns that were valid and I chose to ignore her (maybe a bad decision I guess).. but.. it's different than it sounds. I dont think my relationship with old T is hampering my relationship with current T. That has also been discussed, with both of them, and I know they have talked. I've been trying to make current T hear me for 2 years and she still isnt. That's today, in the now.. whether I have any contact with old T or not. When I do talk to old T, most of what we talk about is how to make the relationship with my current T work and what I need to do to express my needs, etc. The biggest reason I saw old T this time was to feel heard but also to consider whether switching to her regularly would be an option. It had been quite some time this time around since I'd seen old T and I can honestly say I wasnt thinking of her that often and wasnt missing her, comparing current T and her, etc. And Phillipa, if I could get ahold of my pdoc I would, but that's a next to impossible thing apparently. She never returns calls, to me or to my T even. I know I need to switch pdocs and that is on my mind but for several reasons, that's also more complicated that it sounds.
I'm already berating myself for making an obviously huge mistake here... I really just need some support.
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