Posted by Cal on August 19, 2008, at 9:15:56
I had these feelings of rage inside of me that I keep having to swallowing. I picture T sitting in her chair and her non reaction to my rage and that makes me feel even more rageful. Why? what is it I want her to do or say? I can't finger it exactly. The more she just "takes" my rage, the more rageful I am. Its like I need her to attack me, to hit me. Perhaps then I can make her not mean so much to me? I don't know, but its painful. Even posting about it is very hard.
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