Posted by Lemonaide on August 11, 2008, at 20:50:44
Oh, by the way I did see my current T at the gym on Sat, the day after my first migraine. I was at the front desk talking to girl there about starting college, and in walks me T. It went okay, it didn't even feel weird, expect for the surprise of seeing him there at the exact time.
But anyways, I have been thinking about my life, what my old T and what I have gone through, I wrote out a few poems, got me feelings out. A lot of anger and hurt came through those poems.
Now I am thinking I really don't like my old T much. When I think about him as a person, even though we have a lot in common, there is something about him, maybe his arrogant attitude that puts me off. I just don't like him anymore. I don't know if this is progress, or maybe I have processed some of the hurt and anger some.
Tomorrow I am plan on reading my poems and telling my T what I am feeling now.
Having that migraine, was like a sign for me that I need to let go of all of this stress. Maybe the EMDR that I cried through last session, did help. The intensity of my emotions on Tues. session, followed by the release(EMDR) can bring on migraines. But after the migraine, I feel better than I have felt in a very long time. I feel happy and content, lighter.I am scared of feeling good because I don't want it to end, I want it to last. But something happened to me last week. It will be interesting to hear my T's response to this.
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