Posted by Dinah on July 24, 2008, at 23:51:54
In reply to Re: I want to cancel » Dinah, posted by raisinb on July 24, 2008, at 21:41:46
:) I'll be sure to report on it.
I think I probably have a general desire for someone else to take care of things. But my previous experience in this area pretty well convinced me that it was beyond me to explain any of it myself. In general I have an unusual way of expressing myself, especially when I try to explain my experience.
But she'll be asking about my dissociation, like the EMDR therapist did. I have less than no confidence in my ability to explain that in a way that others would understand. While my therapist hopefully has enough training to speak the language. Not only did the EMDR therapist not understand anything I said to her, but the highly scientific dissociation scale tests she administered proved conclusively that I did not have a diagnosable level of dissociation. lol.
I hate all of that. I hate talking about it at all. I especially hate talking about it under pressure. I just don't want to do that.
And I don't want to find that I'm not hypnotizable in addition to not being EMDRable, and to boot, not being dissociative. It's all very discouraging (for the former) and invalidating (for the latter).
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