Posted by Happyflower on June 26, 2008, at 8:36:11
I have been off for a month so far, and I am just starting to rise above the heavy non functional depression. I still might need a meds adjustment of a higher dose because I am doing much better, but not up to the high functioning I am used to, I still struggle every day. It is like my mood is much better, but I am not functioning like an adult/mother needs too.
So I think I need to take off the fall semester for medical reasons. I called my school and I might have to pay the interest on my school loans for a month or two, but once I start up this Jan, the payments will stop.
I have so much to do at home with cleaning and organizing. School will be much easier when things are smooth running at home. Plus I want to do a huge cooking session where I freeze meals for 6 mo. at a time. I save so much money and it will be easy to pull a meatloaf out of the freezer or lasagna and thaw overnight and my daughter can put it in the oven before I come home from school.
Plus I have the whole therapy thing too to deal with. I just found out that my T is letting me pay what I normally pay after insurance, like $39.00 per session, which is a big discount off $110. I didn't even ask him for a discount, his secretary who likes me asked him when my insurance was up. So that is a relief since I go every week.
Making this decision is making me feel so much lighter, less pressure. Sometimes I feel I can't do anything when there is so much to do, too overwhelming. But knowing I have more time and can get myself together mentally as well, feels like I am doing something good for myself. I will get my degree eventually... right now there are more important things, like me and my family, I am still a mom. A degree won't mean too much if I lose my family.
Sorry this got so long, but just writing this down makes me smile and makes me want to do something for once.
poster:Happyflower
thread:836534
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