Posted by Annierose on June 16, 2008, at 18:03:03
I am fortunate to be able to see my therapist three times a week. Recently she changed my Friday appointment to Thursday. I had mixed feelings. Although Thursday works out better with my job, it also meant the weekend would seem that much longer.
Today we talked about how long the weekends feel for me. I asked her why is this so hard? Why do I feel so needy when I'm seemingly so put-together? What is all this angst about? Where is it coming from?
While not discounting the importance of our relationship, she explained that these feelings belong to the little girl who missed her mom and worried whether she mattered. Although I understood the concept of transference, a light bulb went off for me. All this angst and anxiety was what I felt at a younger age but put away until I was in a safer place to understand it all.
I told my therapist, "I think I'm coming apart." She said, "You are coming apart in a good way. It's an unraveling of your old way of thinking and a newer appreciation and empathy for you as a child. I'm here to help you so that it doesn't become overwhelming and you shut down."
I think my t asked me if I would like to have Friday appointments again .... I'm not quite sure if she asked ... but even before I could understand what she was asking ... I did tell her overall, I liked my Thursday time slot better.
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