Posted by Daisym on June 11, 2008, at 0:25:23
restless
I'm really, really restless. I'm sorry I haven't been here much - I haven't anything intelligent to add to threads. I feel stuck in a painful, lonely way. What is it I'm searching for?
My therapist keeps holding up this mirror that shows me that *I'm* the one who keeps myself isolated and alone - he said I have no community. But I don't know how to create and keep a community. It seems easier to work on letting go of needing people. He doesn't seem to think that is a good idea. Which leaves me mad at him a great deal of the time.
The thing is, I'm totally OK with people needing me. I just don't want to need them. And I have tons of business relationship. It is the after-hours and weekend time that is so open. And while I don't miss being hurt, I miss being held. I want to curl up next to someone and just feel them (and this from someone who hates hugs). How does a person get this really primal need met - not sex - holding?
Blah. I think we need a fun thread. I'll try to start one below.
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thread:834089
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