Posted by wishingstar on May 3, 2008, at 8:58:20
In reply to Re: how do you... » wishingstar, posted by sunnydays on May 2, 2008, at 22:42:42
Thanks everyone.. I really appreciate all the responses and nice thoughts. I'm doing better today. I havent been sleeping well for several weeks (stress related) and on top of everything else, I'm just feeling very sensitive I guess.
I'm not going to respond to each post individually if thats ok... but I will respond to the few specific things.
I do have a brother. He just turned 18 and is going to college in the fall. We get along, but we've never been close. Part of what makes my family dynamic hard for me is that my mother LOVES my brother. I mean, she talks about him and what hes doing all the time, supports him, complete opposite of what I got. When I applied for college, she wasnt involved at all and didnt really care. He just finished that process and she took him to visit every school multiple times, etc. He doesnt understand that my experience has been different.
And about my boyfriend. Overall, he is great. He is older than me by many years and so I think he has more distance from what it's like to be in your 20s and just cant really relate. That's okay. I dont think he feels I'm becoming dependent on him though. I'm really a very independent, "I can do it myself" kind of person, sometimes probably to a fault. It's a long story but the reason he wouldnt come with me to sign the lease had to do with an experience he'd had with this rental company 10+ years ago (while living with his ex-gf no less) and he's still holding a grudge.
I'm going to continue on being proud of myself and trying to fill that need for myself. I almost always do just fine with that. But sometimes, it all just falls apart... like the other night. I really appreciate everything everyone said. Thank you all so much.
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