Posted by Happyflower on April 28, 2008, at 20:07:34
I finally don't feel so doom and gloom and want to lay in bed awake thinking of nothing but wanting to disappear within the covers and hide from life.
Today was my last day of school and I am so relieved, I have so many thing I have neglected because of my depression. So I feel like this is my chance of renewal. I am excited about my internship, I have learned so much from it already.
I think the Prozac is helping finally, and if only I can deal with some of the side effects. I can now understand why some don't take their meds because of the side effects can be really bad.
I have don't have therapy for a couple of weeks, and maybe I need a break from it. It is such a commitment emotionally, I think I should take advantage of this opportunity to think about my life.. I have been working hard and have built a wonderful relationship with my T that I value so much. I know I can go the the hard places with him because he cares about me and I feel safe with him.
I am going on a mini vacation next week full of hiking and canoing in one of my most favorite places. We have this log cabin with a full kitchen so you can eat breakfast in your pajamas and has a hot tub for after all the hiking that is done on the very rugged trails. We can have a campfire outside and roast marshmallows for smores with the kids. I feel a little guilty because I should be saving money, but our family needs this time away.I think I can get through this, I have hope for my future, I can see growth within myself, and can thank a lot of areas in my life that has helped me. I feel with my current T, I have moved mountains in my recovery compared to the 2 1/2 years I was with my other T.
I feel like I have matured some and are on a more promising path for my future. I still have a long way to go, but at least I am moving forward. Tonight I just feel good for once.
poster:Happyflower
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