Posted by Happyflower on April 25, 2008, at 9:08:26
Lots of stuff is upsetting me, I need to stop watching the news for one. It seems like the world is just one big mean place sometimes and right now I don't have the energy to fight back the evils of society.
I don't have my T for a long time, my daughter is sick with a cold and having asthma problems because of it. My dog pulled his groin and need pain meds and muscle relaxers.
I think my DH is just sick of me because I can't do anything, he said he understood, but there is so much anyone can do when they have to do everything. I feel like I have no right to be depressed, I am a mother and wife, I have responsibilities and I am not fulfilling any of them.
My last class and final is on Mon. I need to shape up and stay away from the computer so much. I think I am taking advantage of being depressed a little too much, making it as an excuse not to do anything, but I don't really don't feel like doing anything. The Prozac is working I think, but I am nowhere near at least 80%.
Sometimes like seems so frickin hard and you get tired of living because it is too hard to live. I am not suicidal, but I am sick of living my life right now.
I think yesterday's EMDR session brought up some stuff from the past that makes me feel so lonely and insignificant. We did a EMDR on that feeling and I started to feel it really well from the past, but then I went blank and blocked that feeling out completely, all in one set of EMDR. Maybe now that I am writing out this what has become my journal this morning, maybe it comes down to what was stirred up in therapy. ick
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